If Ben wants to find love with Micah, he'll have to own up to the truth of who he is.
People-pleaser Ben Forman has been in the closet so long he has almost convinced himself he is straight, but his denial train gets derailed when hotshot lawyer Micah Trains walks into his life. Micah is brilliant, funny, driven…and he assumes Ben is gay and starts dating him. Finding himself truly happy for the first time, Ben doesn't have the willpower to resist Micah's affection.
When his relationship with Micah heats up, Ben realizes has a problem: his parents won't tolerate a gay son and self-confident Micah isn't the type to hide. If Ben wants to maintain his hold on his happiness, he'll have to decide what's important and own up to the truth of who he is. The trouble is figuring out just what that truth is.
I'm not gay. I'm not gay. I'm not gay.
I know you're thinking that's a weird chant for a straight guy to have as his mantra. But I figure maybe if I think it over and over again, it'll actually be true. I mean, I don't look gay or anything. I'm six feet three inches tall, muscular, and have broad shoulders. That's not small or girly. And I'm athletic. I played varsity sports all through high school, intramurals in college, and I still play in a men's baseball league. I have a deep, strong voice. No lisp in sight. Plus, women like me. I always have a girlfriend. Always.
So I'm not gay, right? There must be some other logical explanation for why I'm standing in the bathroom with my hard dick in my hand fantasizing about the new guy at work. For the third time today. And it isn't…
Ben is funny, crazy, stupid, and so in denial that he could have been a parody of himself. The fact that he doesn't even in a book written in first person POV is almost a miracle. Watching Ben fight through all his conflicted feelings could have been an exercise in extreme frustration, but somehow isn't. That's the mark of a great story. When it could have been and maybe should have been crazy making but totally wasn't.
I cried, cringed, melted and on a few occasions, laughed through this book and highly recommend it for anyone who enjoys romance that is not easily achieved, some angst and a lead character that is delightfully flawed that he seems perfect!
This was, truly, one of the best coming out journeys I've read and I loved taking it with Ben. I adored him and Micah, with the added benefit of seeing Ben grow closer to Noah and Clark. This was an excellent addition to the series and I'm so very glad the author wrote a story for Ben. Thank you, Cardeno, I loved it.
Cardeno C has an incredible way of getting us right into the characters